New Oil Portrait

Im looking for sources for my next portrait due. This portrait will be about my creativity. So to express my love of creativity in the field of painting..... Im thinking I will have paint brushes stabbing through me. Like Saint Sebastian. I am not a fan of oil painting. I will be practicing it but it's going to take a long time  to get as good as the idealized skill.

Im just doing the bust. I don't have this body type at the moment. Im not conceded either. These self portraits aren't my choice. They're required assignments.